I was diagnosed with right cerebellar haemorrhage in Oct. 1995. I am a 22 year old female, second year university. It happened before my exams week. I had a persistent headache for nearly a week. I ignored it thinking it is because of the stress . By the end of the week I realizes that my headache kept getting worst. All I could do is lay down on my bed. If I shift my position the headache will get worst.
I also could no longer write. My hand writing became illegible. I went to see a general practitioner and he diagnosed me with stress and gave me some pills. After 2 days it still didn't get better so I went to see another general practitioner. I told him my condition and straight away he wrote me a referral letter to go to see the neuro specialist.
I went on Tuesday and after checking my condition. They admitted me into the ward. They did a CT scan and MRI on me. Then the doctor told me I have haemorrhage in my brain. I was new to this and didn't know what actually is happening. I was still walking around until they made me lie on the bed. Later I was told that I will be transfered to another hospital because They don't have a neurosurgeon here.
I was transferred that night itself. When I reached the hospital I was nearly lifeless. I had not eaten since 8am. and my headache is killing me. I was put on a drip. The next morning a surgeon came to see me. He told me they will see if I needed an operation. A few days later I had an angiogram done. The results were released a few weeks later. Later I got to know my CT scan, MRI and angiogram results contradicts each other.
My headache cleared after 3 weeks but I was still not allowed to go home. Later I was sent for CT scan. The surgeons and radiologists still don't know what to make out of my problems. Later I coaxed a surgoen to tell me what is happening. He told me they suspected tumour. I couldn't belief my ears. I thought I am on my way to recovery and they tell me in getting into a bigger problem. The fact only hit me later. I couldn't believe that I might be dying soon, I told God that I still too young. Why does he put me into such a situation? I had lots of support from my Christians friends and prayers too.
After my shocked I decided to go for a second opinion. I brought all my CT scan, MRI and angiogram results for him to see. He too was confused but each results. He said probably it healed by it self but he recommended thet I go for another angiogram test. I went for it and the result came back negative. Until then the specialists and surgeons had considered to operat me two times but somehow God prevented it.
I could write again after practicing everyday in journal writing while I was in hospital. It took me nearly one month to be able to write like usual again. One of the specialist said my case is indeed a miracle. Until now they diagnosed my case as right cerebellar haemorrhage and they still don't know what cause it.
Since I am out from the hospital I did't run or jump. Some specialists said I shouldn't to avoid another rupture. Some call me to lead back my normal life. I know I can trust God with my life and I come to the point where I realize that if God wants me to be in heaven with him he can any time. But I guess my work on earth is nor done yet. Somehow through the incident I know that my time to die hasn't come yet. He still wants me on earth to glorify him. Though I can put my trust in God I have very little information about how to live my life again.
Are there specific do's and don't that I have to follow? One thing about the doctors' who treated me is that I am never enlightened about my own condition. What is it that I am going through and how can I cope with it. Every time I had to end up forcing them to tell me what happened. I am still wondering am I a walking time bomb. I still live with fear because I don't have enough information to guide me. As the Bible says,"The truth shall sets you free". I just hope some one will tell me the truth so that I can live my life to the fullest and not fearing what will happen if I do this or that.
I really miss playing tennis and other sports. I would really appreciate it if anyone could give me information about life after aneurysm. I am from Malaysia. I will be going for my MRI this Thursday.(18-4-96)